Today my certain someone emailed to say that after ten days in his little nothing-of-a-town, he's sick of it up there and wants to come back to see me for a week or so, until he hears back about a job (which is a shot in the dark in Alaska, and which he has been waiting months to hear back on). You know what I said?
Ya know, I don't know how I would feel about you coming back. I would like to see you again too, but I don't want to only provide a way for you to pass the time (he's been bored as hell since he left), or a booty call. I would almost rather you didn't come back unless you plan on staying, since you leaving hurt so bad the last time. Plus, starting next week I will have a job, whether in Town A or Town B, and if it's in Town A I will be staying with my parents during the week while I work. I just don't know... I'm sorry that *your town* hasn't been as excellent as you thought it would be, and maybe it would be if you had a job and a better place to live there. But if not *your town*, then where? You said you're tired of starting over again and again, but I don't see that pattern ending any time soon. I think it's time for you to choose a place to settle down and start your life. Me and my apartment can't serve as a pit stop between your adventures. You're either here or you're not. It's not gonna work otherwise.
- *his town* is the place I sent him, hundreds of miles away, that he just 'knew' he wanted to end up for life.
- Town A is a town about 50 miles away, a place where I have a job interview tomorrow!
Score 2 for Jenn! In all honesty, I'm out of the habit. I have my own life and my own shit to deal with, whether he's involved or not. I kinda don't care anymore. Like I said before, I know without a doubt that he loves me and my kids, that we love him, that we could be immensely happy together forever... but I'm tired of waiting.
One more thing... he said he got an email from another State agency wanting to hire him, but he told them about his wait for the Alaska job. It reminded me of the way he wanted me to wait for him to decide whether to stay or leave, so I asked him how long he expected them to wait for his answer? Once again, the world does not revolve around you, sir. No, it does not.
- Town A is a town about 50 miles away, a place where I have a job interview tomorrow!
Score 2 for Jenn! In all honesty, I'm out of the habit. I have my own life and my own shit to deal with, whether he's involved or not. I kinda don't care anymore. Like I said before, I know without a doubt that he loves me and my kids, that we love him, that we could be immensely happy together forever... but I'm tired of waiting.
One more thing... he said he got an email from another State agency wanting to hire him, but he told them about his wait for the Alaska job. It reminded me of the way he wanted me to wait for him to decide whether to stay or leave, so I asked him how long he expected them to wait for his answer? Once again, the world does not revolve around you, sir. No, it does not.
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